I am Deeply Sorry!

Sometimes things happen for a reason. I know this might sounds corny and repetitious, but after what happens today. I certainly noticed I got you mad to the extreme. But yeah, I kept it to myself because I don't like sharing some personal stuff with people; I know for some it helps to let out some of what is hurting them. I surely know what I had you generating today, and there is no way I would have had the courage to disappoint you with those same lips that pronounced "agree" and "absolutely" to our rendezvous. On my way to school today, I lost my wallet with my debit card, my school I.D. and a bunch of other identification cards. Well, I can cancel my debit account to prevent people from using it, and retrieve the other I.Ds. But the cash, my last check, and most importantly my godson’s picture can never be retrieved.                                                           

I tried to play it like everything was fine earlier, but I was just lying to myself and trying to protect you from feeling bad for me. I appreciate sympathy, but sometimes I just detest having friends and close ones enduring my pain. I try to keep rolling in order to protect my situation, and not sharing this with you. Now I realize I should have told you the truth, and not having you thinking that I did not want to be in your company today.                                                            

I don’t want to say sorry for what I did, and how my situation made me treat you today but I wish I had never thought of it that way.                                                                                                       

I am certainly willing to make it up for you. I have been thinking about you all day, and how to make it up for you. 

Influential Person in my life

            It is not always easy to find someone who can impact your life positively, and in a radical in nature. I sometimes find myself totally bewildered and perplexed when people ask questions, such as; “Who’s your hero? Who has influenced your life?” and many more questions that trigger how my life is changing. I was not raised by any of my parents, and so not any of them really has an influence in my life, and that certainly puts me in a situation where I do not admire a particular individual for his/her grandiosity. If I could chose one person who has influenced my life, that particular individual would have been one of my teachers from middle school, Mr. Garza. When I emigrated from Haiti to the United States, I surely thought things would have been very easy, and the word struggle would not be part of my vocabulary anymore; this how I pictured things before I moved here. But I certainly see things differently comparing to how I pictured life in the U.S.; specifically life at school.
        When I first came to the U.S. of course I struggled with the foreign language, and with adaptation but I always had teachers at my school who were there to help me with things, and many of them have talked me through things that I should do in order to learn English fast. Ms. Garza was one of the teachers who suggested that I listen to NPR (WBUR), and it was the first thing I did when I got home that same day she suggested it. Ever since that day WBUR has been part of my hobbies; I know this might sound weird, but I consider this radio station as a well-mannered and sophisticated friend due to the fact that it talks to me constantly, and provides me with accurate, and multicultural informations. Besides of intensive reading and help from many of my teachers, WBUR, which Ms. Garza has suggested me to listen to has contributed a lot to the enhancement of my English. Before I came to the United States medicine has always been the path that I wanted to strive and chose to have a career in, but after those years listening to WBUR, I come to have a penchant for journalism, and developed a passion for writing. All of these go back to Ms. Garza’s influential suggestion that I listen to NPR.
       My second year at my first school, which was the year of my graduation; at this time of the year around May, Ms. Garza approached me with this huge magazine titled Summer Stuff and I can vividly remember her actually words till today, “Guy, I found you something interesting. I think you are going to like it, it’s a summer program.” She talked me through everything, and finally said this program was a good fit for me. coming from a country where there is not that many opportunities, I could not resist not being part of Upward Bound that summer. Ms. Garza certainly introduced me to this program ever since the summer of 2008, and today I am still part of this program. Through Upward Bound I make so many friends, nationally and internationally. Lately I have been thinking of Special Education as a way to give back everything that Ms. Garza has done for me when I first came to the United States, and attended school here without knowing a word of English.
          I would really like to see her today, and thank her for everything she has done for me, and for being an influential person in my life.